I went again to Rama Lotus Yoga Centre this week, and continued live to Blog about it!
Rama Lotus Yoga Centre in the heart of downtown Ottawa, Ontario Canada.
When I started yoga, I felt like a fish out of water. I still got stuck in that negative place of “I am too fat to do this” and fear that something bad would happen like physically pulling a muscle or pinching a nerve. The truth is I am a pinched nerve! *Giggles. Luckily all of my bad stereotypes (which I created in my own mind) had proven false, the yoga teachers were nice, the environment was friendly and the yoga experience was physically and emotionally awakening. “I feel better!” after doing Yoga. Who knew? Well the Yogi Masters did!!!
Today I want to share with you Dear Reader my second yoga experience and write the idea that one’s quest for better health, physical fitness and mental stability does not have to be perfect, there is neither perfect path to wellbeing nor an easy road to liberation, for that matter. Like Buddha once said and taught about ~ The Middle Path.
“The Buddha’s message was simple yet profound. Neither a life of self- indulgence, nor one of self-mortification can bring happiness. Only a middle path, avoiding these two extremes, leads to peace of mind, wisdom, and complete liberation from the dissatisfactions of life.” ~Bhante Gunaratana (from “Eight Mindful Steps to Happiness”)
I’ve been having a hard time with opening up my heart to others; I may act friendly, behave compassionately, and continue to work professionally but my heart is not into any of them. The “woes-me” syndrome is what I like to call it. I just feel like no one gives a dame about me or anything I do, in all areas of my life. I just can’t seem to shake the feeling of “not-being-good-enough” which leads me into depression because I feel that all of my creative projects like: blogging, podcasting, writing are to no fulfilling ends because again, no one cares. This fear and resentment is a by-product of my pain-body or ego and it’s my own take on the situation, I know (deep down) that is not the case, there is always somebody that cares and a solution to achieve goals for professional or creative fulfillment — I just don’t always see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My hope is for Yoga to help shed some light into my downward spiral of a mood. I initiated this quest because my body was very tense after the death of my Step-Father. I wanted a release of some kind so I tried yoga. It’s funny I have no memory of how or where I got the idea to go or how it happened. It’s almost like I was guided there. I like to think so, guardian angels and spirit guides and all, it’s a comforting feeling to know the divine is watching and helping you in some way. I know I am on the right path by how positive it has been, in just a short time all of my friends wanted to go with me. The talks we had the motivation it brought, the positive energy it exhumed was really an eye opener, we all want healing and to feel and look good, yoga can help shape that. It made me happy to see my friends all excited to go to yoga with me, they too have their own mission for why they are there, and together it makes the journey less lonely; I’m grateful for that.